Monday, July 4, 2011
ugghhhh, no f&^king idea what day it is
I am so over PCP today. I'm drenched in sweat, feel like I am about to die of a brain aneurysm and I want to vomit! Tony is working last so I was on my own for workout tonight. Didn't get home til late and ate dinner at 8:45pm. Didn't even start my workout til after 10pm and it still felt like I had just eaten :-( Pushed through the workout (for reasons to long to explain I did day 79 workout today) and when doing the show offs or whatever the hell they are called I got a massive headache that further advocated the feeling of needing to throw up and has yet to go away. After doing the workout I added 8 minutes bc I am trying to be extra good the last 10 days but felt like the aneurysm that I am now convinced I developed in the last hour is going to rupture causing me to die right here on the floor of my house drenched in sweat with a messy ponytail. Finally it's over, I made it, but wait then I remembered that I haven't done my f#@king cardio yet and it's after 11:30pm so now I have the choice of cardio or trying for 7-8hours of sleep. I am choosing sleep bc I can here Patrick in my head saying I'm wasting my time if I don't sleep and I will not die of an aneurysm in vain so cardio will have to wait. I choke down the 2 egg whites that feel like 200 because I am so sick to my stomach that I feel like emptying it NOT adding to it. (rant over) bed time! Hope every one had a better day :-) I usually don't complain but Patrick always says blog it out and since my PCP is almost done I felt like I should get one good one in!
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Keep it up, I promise should you die in a heap I will fly over and straighten your hair before anyone sees you! Might even give you some fresh mascara!
ReplyDeleteMondays are always shit, you are doing bloody well, I am very impressed I would have called in a jet lag excuse and gone for cake! Your are soooooo close. Keep positive.
This is GREAT! Everyone needs to do at least one post like this is right....that's what blogging is all about, the good, the bad & the ugly. You are 9 days away from the goal. I had a workout like this my last week of PCP....thought I was going to hurl. Patrick told me it's ok to have that happen every 3 months or so, but you don't want that to happen every time --- you found where the limits are. Glad you went for the sleep over cardio.
ReplyDeleteThat's how it's DONE! People think this kind of post is "bad" but it's a very reassuring sign of mental health. I'd rather read 90 posts like this from someone who actually DOES IT than 90 hearts and butterflies posts from someone who's slacking.
ReplyDeleteSo good for you Lori. Almost done!